I always told Meaghan that I’d never get married. It was so silly, to spend so much money to show your in love. I didn’t get it.
But she did.
The one thing that she always said was “I used to feel that way too, but it changes as you get older. I promise. Someday you’ll get married and be the happiest you ever were.”
I never believed her.
But tonight, she died. Wonderful, funny, amazingly talented at everything, red-headed Meaghan is with Jesus now.
I cant help but think that tomorrow I’ll wake up, and we’ll be in New York at Empire. This was all just a horrible nightmare brought on by the stress of competition. She’ll be there in the next room over, all chipper and ready to seize the day. Hair, make-up, Starbucks. Life will be the same.
But it cant. And it wont.
Meaghan will never be able to get married. Meaghan will never be able to go to law school. Her dreams are just…gone.
But I will not let what she stood for die as well.
I’ll change my way of thinking. I’ll be more open and loving. I’ll let myself fall in love, and I’ll get married. Just for Meaghan. I’ll bust my butt and get through law school. I’ll make her proud. Just for Meaghan.
Just for Meaghan.
<3
But she did.
The one thing that she always said was “I used to feel that way too, but it changes as you get older. I promise. Someday you’ll get married and be the happiest you ever were.”
I never believed her.
But tonight, she died. Wonderful, funny, amazingly talented at everything, red-headed Meaghan is with Jesus now.
I cant help but think that tomorrow I’ll wake up, and we’ll be in New York at Empire. This was all just a horrible nightmare brought on by the stress of competition. She’ll be there in the next room over, all chipper and ready to seize the day. Hair, make-up, Starbucks. Life will be the same.
But it cant. And it wont.
Meaghan will never be able to get married. Meaghan will never be able to go to law school. Her dreams are just…gone.
But I will not let what she stood for die as well.
I’ll change my way of thinking. I’ll be more open and loving. I’ll let myself fall in love, and I’ll get married. Just for Meaghan. I’ll bust my butt and get through law school. I’ll make her proud. Just for Meaghan.
Just for Meaghan.
<3